Not doing so well...

Not doing so well...so far on my weight lose journey. Still drinking Dr. Pepper can't give it up...so am going to just not drink so much....its just so good. I haven't got any exercise...not to make excuses but it has been cold. I haven't adjusted my food intake either...so ya Not doing so well...

My Fat ASS!

Ok so before I had Elijah I weighed 202 pounds, yikes I know! But after having him I weight 195 yes losing 7 pounds from my start weigh, YAY right? Weighed myself today 202 again..I gained weight, wanted to cry.Keep in mind I weighed 127 before having Lillian. Got up to 180 while pregnant never lost the weight. Gained 20 pounds with Rickie lost 10...later gained 12. Which brings me to my current weight of 202.

Here is the thing, it would be one thing if I was comfortable at this weigh...big girls rock when they are confident. However I can't even stand to look in the mirror. Sometime I catch a glimpse of myself with my stomach showing and want to throw up. You will have to trust me on this one.

So, Erick promised me years ago that he would pay for my tummy tuck after we were done having kids, well we are done. So I went online to see what pricing was and that kid of stuff...it ranges from $3,000 to $10,000. But on every website I went to it said you need to be within 30% of your ideal weight...which I am not.

So in order to get my tummy tuck (and maybe a little lipo) I am going to try and lose weight. First I am going to try not to drink Dr. Pepper anymore...i know jenny without Dr. Pepper crazy! Second I am going to take at least 4 walks a week and do my pilates at least 3 times a week. Third I am going to try to adjust my eating habits...by only eating when I actually feel hungry, drinking more water, down sizing my portions...and maybe calorie counting not sure how strict I want to be yet. I want to be able to keep this up so if I can't do it forever not doing it. Meaning not giving up cheese and bread but cutting back!

So my starting weight is 202. my waist is 47 inches, my butt is 45 inches and my chest is 46 inches (keep in mind I am breastfeeding and my boobs are huge right now). My goal weight is 140....not sure inches. That is my over all goal weight but to set a more realistic goal...I would like to lose 30 pounds by the end of the year....15 pounds by the end of September. although I will take anything at this point.

I will update on how it is going...wish me luck.

Back to work!

Well I am back at work after only 3 weeks off. It hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be, aside from having to pump breast milk every 2 hours. Keeping in mind I work in a warehouse with all men. I pump in a freezing cold bathroom, I wheel my desk chair in there and sit next to the stalls, not comfortable at all. And today the air freshener ran out of stuff so beeped every five seconds, and its to high for me to reach, enough to drive someone crazy. I am definately going to have to get a broom from the lobby and knock it down before I pump again.

Well a lot has happened in the last 2 weeks. Lillian turned four on the 16th of April. We got her a bike and gave it to her on the 16th. Her birthday party was bowling on Saturday the 17th. Lillian I had just made cupcakes for her party and sat down to watch Marvin the tap dancing horse when my water broke. This was around 9:30pm and Elijah was born at 3:07 am. He weighed 7 pounds 12 ounces and was 21 inches long...just imagine how big he would have gotten had he lasted the remaining 3 weeks. We are excited to finally have him here with us and he is such a good little baby. He had jaundice pretty bad so he had to be on the bili bed for about 6 days...which was so sad , but all is good now. I had to miss Lillian's birthday party of course. It was hard for me but could stand the thought of canceling it. She had a blast and got a strike!

Erick had finals the week we came home from the hospital which definitely put the pressure on him. He was busy taking care of all of us and still had to try and study. Also that week his dear friend passed away. Chris Hall who is like a brother to Erick passed away unexpectedly. Erick was having a lot put on his plate at once...but handled it well. He and Rickie flew to California for the funeral...leaving me, Lilly and Elijah behind. We are missing them both so much and can't wait to pick them up on Sunday evening.

Here we go

So Erick and I will both be posting update and info about our little family...we will see how it goes.

Erick is currently attending Weber State University majoring in History...yuck! I don't know how he does it history is so boring...but he loves it. He also stays home with the girls during the day which they love. He works the weekends at Olive Garden...which helps pay the bills but I never see the man.

I am working part time as an administrative assistant at Bell Janitorial Supply. I am pregnant with our third child...I am due May 3rd but am bigger then I have ever been and ready to pop.

We recently moved from our 2 bedroom apartment into a 4 bedroom townhouse...we are loving the extra space. I haven't finished unpacking yet...my goal is to be done before the baby comes. We also just bought a trailblazer so that all the kids can fit...car seats take up so much extra room.

Lillian will be 4 years old on Friday...I can't believe my baby is that big. She is 4 going on 25...very strong personality and sounds like an adult at times. She loves to sing and dance around. She can't wait to start school this year...she will be in head start...although Erick wishes she could go to kindergarten she is ready! She is so smart and loving....always willing to help.

Rickie will be 2 in July...she is my happy girl. She is always so excited to see me when I walk in the door. She loves to jump and climb and get into everything. She is a big dork and makes me laugh all of the time...she is gorgeous!

We are excited for the arrival of our little boy Elijah....having a boy will be a nice change. I can wait to meet him...I hope he looks like Erick....with the blonde blonde hair and blue eyes.