My Fat ASS!

Ok so before I had Elijah I weighed 202 pounds, yikes I know! But after having him I weight 195 yes losing 7 pounds from my start weigh, YAY right? Weighed myself today 202 again..I gained weight, wanted to cry.Keep in mind I weighed 127 before having Lillian. Got up to 180 while pregnant never lost the weight. Gained 20 pounds with Rickie lost 10...later gained 12. Which brings me to my current weight of 202.

Here is the thing, it would be one thing if I was comfortable at this weigh...big girls rock when they are confident. However I can't even stand to look in the mirror. Sometime I catch a glimpse of myself with my stomach showing and want to throw up. You will have to trust me on this one.

So, Erick promised me years ago that he would pay for my tummy tuck after we were done having kids, well we are done. So I went online to see what pricing was and that kid of stuff...it ranges from $3,000 to $10,000. But on every website I went to it said you need to be within 30% of your ideal weight...which I am not.

So in order to get my tummy tuck (and maybe a little lipo) I am going to try and lose weight. First I am going to try not to drink Dr. Pepper anymore...i know jenny without Dr. Pepper crazy! Second I am going to take at least 4 walks a week and do my pilates at least 3 times a week. Third I am going to try to adjust my eating habits...by only eating when I actually feel hungry, drinking more water, down sizing my portions...and maybe calorie counting not sure how strict I want to be yet. I want to be able to keep this up so if I can't do it forever not doing it. Meaning not giving up cheese and bread but cutting back!

So my starting weight is 202. my waist is 47 inches, my butt is 45 inches and my chest is 46 inches (keep in mind I am breastfeeding and my boobs are huge right now). My goal weight is 140....not sure inches. That is my over all goal weight but to set a more realistic goal...I would like to lose 30 pounds by the end of the year....15 pounds by the end of September. although I will take anything at this point.

I will update on how it is going...wish me luck.