Happened again....

So I told most everybody this but my first week back after having Elijah (went back after 3 weeks) a regular customer came in, she says to me "I wondered if you had your baby yet..Guess not though" I say to her "No I already had him"...then crickets...not a sound...it was like time stood still to highlight the moment...i wanted to cry...didn't but wanted to.

So I go to the Dr. today for my 6 week postpartum appointment and it happens again. First let me say I hate women who are 9 months pregnant and tummy's look like they just ate a big meal..meaning tiny! Anyways I get weighed (we will discuss in a moment) and checked out...Dr. Hall is so nice, so I am feeling pretty good as a get on the elevator...A woman in the elevator says to me "Well,(smiling and overly enthusiastic) when is your baby due?" I say "I already had my baby"...which sets her off on the whole "It takes time"..."its worth it" blah blah blah...never been so happy to get off an elevator.

So needless to say I am feeling great about myself!!!! I weigh 204 pounds...yep that's right 204..I have gained 2 pounds since my vow to try and lose weight. Although I must say I haven't really done my part. I went on a walk yesterday..not a long one cause it was raining but it counts as exercise...haven't touch pilates...Have cut back a little on the DR. Pepper...but that's cause we are broke.

Jill's friend is on diet pills its been 3 months and she has lost 35 pounds...want them! Dr. Hall wont perscrib them...to much risk and he likes the old exercise eat right method of weight lost... YUCK! So I got the name of Jill's friend's Dr....only problem is I am breast feeding so can't take them...by the time Elijah is one I wont have insurance to get pills...so that sucks!

Am still going to work on losing weight...I really am..I mean it...I am