Not doing so well...

Not doing so well...so far on my weight lose journey. Still drinking Dr. Pepper can't give it up...so am going to just not drink so much....its just so good. I haven't got any exercise...not to make excuses but it has been cold. I haven't adjusted my food intake either...so ya Not doing so well...

My Fat ASS!

Ok so before I had Elijah I weighed 202 pounds, yikes I know! But after having him I weight 195 yes losing 7 pounds from my start weigh, YAY right? Weighed myself today 202 again..I gained weight, wanted to cry.Keep in mind I weighed 127 before having Lillian. Got up to 180 while pregnant never lost the weight. Gained 20 pounds with Rickie lost 10...later gained 12. Which brings me to my current weight of 202.

Here is the thing, it would be one thing if I was comfortable at this weigh...big girls rock when they are confident. However I can't even stand to look in the mirror. Sometime I catch a glimpse of myself with my stomach showing and want to throw up. You will have to trust me on this one.

So, Erick promised me years ago that he would pay for my tummy tuck after we were done having kids, well we are done. So I went online to see what pricing was and that kid of stuff...it ranges from $3,000 to $10,000. But on every website I went to it said you need to be within 30% of your ideal weight...which I am not.

So in order to get my tummy tuck (and maybe a little lipo) I am going to try and lose weight. First I am going to try not to drink Dr. Pepper anymore...i know jenny without Dr. Pepper crazy! Second I am going to take at least 4 walks a week and do my pilates at least 3 times a week. Third I am going to try to adjust my eating habits...by only eating when I actually feel hungry, drinking more water, down sizing my portions...and maybe calorie counting not sure how strict I want to be yet. I want to be able to keep this up so if I can't do it forever not doing it. Meaning not giving up cheese and bread but cutting back!

So my starting weight is 202. my waist is 47 inches, my butt is 45 inches and my chest is 46 inches (keep in mind I am breastfeeding and my boobs are huge right now). My goal weight is 140....not sure inches. That is my over all goal weight but to set a more realistic goal...I would like to lose 30 pounds by the end of the year....15 pounds by the end of September. although I will take anything at this point.

I will update on how it is going...wish me luck.

Back to work!

Well I am back at work after only 3 weeks off. It hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be, aside from having to pump breast milk every 2 hours. Keeping in mind I work in a warehouse with all men. I pump in a freezing cold bathroom, I wheel my desk chair in there and sit next to the stalls, not comfortable at all. And today the air freshener ran out of stuff so beeped every five seconds, and its to high for me to reach, enough to drive someone crazy. I am definately going to have to get a broom from the lobby and knock it down before I pump again.

Well a lot has happened in the last 2 weeks. Lillian turned four on the 16th of April. We got her a bike and gave it to her on the 16th. Her birthday party was bowling on Saturday the 17th. Lillian I had just made cupcakes for her party and sat down to watch Marvin the tap dancing horse when my water broke. This was around 9:30pm and Elijah was born at 3:07 am. He weighed 7 pounds 12 ounces and was 21 inches long...just imagine how big he would have gotten had he lasted the remaining 3 weeks. We are excited to finally have him here with us and he is such a good little baby. He had jaundice pretty bad so he had to be on the bili bed for about 6 days...which was so sad , but all is good now. I had to miss Lillian's birthday party of course. It was hard for me but could stand the thought of canceling it. She had a blast and got a strike!

Erick had finals the week we came home from the hospital which definitely put the pressure on him. He was busy taking care of all of us and still had to try and study. Also that week his dear friend passed away. Chris Hall who is like a brother to Erick passed away unexpectedly. Erick was having a lot put on his plate at once...but handled it well. He and Rickie flew to California for the funeral...leaving me, Lilly and Elijah behind. We are missing them both so much and can't wait to pick them up on Sunday evening.